Hi. You're welcome to Island Aven!
Sorry, i don't speak english, this is a translate. I think there will be a lot of mistakes
Understanding your sexuality is very difficult, in particular the spectrum of asexuality is very broad.
In a couple where one partner is asexual and the other is not, it is necessary to be clear right away, we can (and should) discuss intimacy as long as the different nuances of sexuality are not irreconcilable, always keeping in mind that an agreement may not even be possible. You told us that, during your last relationship, you were willing to have sex with your boyfriend once a week, but this wasn't enough for him. This is a clear example of what I was saying just now, perhaps for you your intimate encounters were too many, but for him they were too few, how to find an agreement? I don't know, maybe it's not possible.
You're doing an stage, you have many interests, you play tennis and paddle, for now you're just looking for a playmate, as you can see, the life of an asexual is NOT in complete solitude, we lack the desire for passion, but, in your case, you would like a story of cuddles and romance.
Other asexuals (like me), however, feel a genuine sense of annoyance even for acts of physical affection (kisses, caresses, foreplay, etc.), and, although they do not consider themselves completely aromantic, they do not desire a romantic relationship.
Sexuality is fluid, and the asexual spectrum is perhaps the most nuanced orientation. The island of Aven hosts them all, asexual and otherwise (I'm not sure, but I really believe that it also hosts members who can speak English without resorting to a translator
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), I don't know if you will find a playmate, but, surely, you will find many small posts that will tell stories and lived experiences which will help you discover more and more this (wonderful for me) world of asexuality.
I hope my answer is at least understandable. I renew my welcome to our island, I hope to read you again soon. Bye.